Neutral

I haven't made my decision yet. My feelings are really neutral right now. I need to talk to him first before I'll know if I can do this. It's two weeks today. What's a promise? I hope it means something but I know better than to place too much hope there. There was a trade off. It was probably just a spur of emotion for him, he'd say whatever without worrying about the consequences.

I'm the one who gets left behind. I'm the one who gets hurt.

That's fair I've broken many hearts. I deserve a broken heart but I don't want one.

My future hangs on one phone call. I keep putting it off. Deep down in my heart I already know the answer. But I keep hoping I'm wrong.