V-Day

Happy Valentines Day

I was hoping he'd call. Oh well life moves on. I don't think he cares about silly things like Valentines Day. Or maybe he does and just doesn't like me. Probably it's that he doesn't like me.

I'll never stop hoping though. It's pathetic and silly like all the celebration today. All the roses and teddy bears scattered everywhere. All I wanted was a phone call. Not even a card or flower just a few minutes to say "Hi I was thinking of you." Sometimes I guess I just ask for too much from the wrong people.

I was going to call but I chickened out at the last minute.

I remember being a kid and buying those cards at walmart and giving them to all my friends.

I remember being 13 and spending Valentine's Day sitting next to the guy I had a crush on wishing he would talk to me.

I remember being 14 and feeling so depressed and angry at Valentine's Day.

I remember being 15 and celebrating six month anniversary with Jake on Valentine's Day.

Now I'm 16, wishing for a phone call and some sleep.

Where will I be next year?