Damn Giants

Happy Superbowl. I'm sad though because the Patriots lost, losing their perfect record this year. The Giants scored in the very last minute when there was only thirty-five seconds left. It was very sad. =( I officially do not like the Giants.

I didn't go to church this morning. Dad was the only one who went. I got up at nine and noticed the lights were all out and my brothers were asleep. I went into my mom's room and asked if we were going to church. She said she was staying home with sick children. Then I asked if I could go back to bed and she said yes.

I slept for awhile until Lauren called me. I was on the phone with her for awhile. I read some of "Twilight" and ate the cinnamin roles mum made. I didn't really do anything all day. I was on the computer for awhile and we ate lunch at three. I watched the game all afternoon...well I read through most of it but I enjoyed the commercials. I don't really understand the game. Jake used to have to explain the football game's to me. lol I remembered a little about what he said but I wasn't paying enough attention to grasp the plays or anything.

I didn't change out of my pajamas and sweatshirt until I took a shower at nine. Now I'm wearing sweats and a t-shirt. I was really lazy today.

I spent my morning very sad. I'm currently not pouting but my feelings haven't changed. I really have never been in this position before. I'm the girl who usually has to push guys away. Now it's reversed. I know I have a Bryant but still he's so distant.

I know my heart and it will never change
This temp work would be alright if you'd call me.
You'd call me.
I lie awake at night for you and I pray.

My other problems did not seem so bad today. My life hasn't fallen apart yet. I believe yesterday I was in shock with a little bit of sadness and anger. Today I'm in denial.

I know it happened but I'm still thinking, "I'm not affected by this. It's distant and nothing is going to happen" even though I know that is not true.

Tell me if we sleep together would it make it any better?
If we sleep together would you be my friend forever?
If we sleep together would it make it any better?
If we sleep together would you be my friend?
Be my friend?

I would say no to that.