Wishful Goals

This is my 100th post.

Just saying.

I wish today meant something.

I wish I could be telling you of everything we did together today.

I wish for once my day fantasy had come true.

I wish that small chance had been fullfilled.

I wish I had something to look forward to this weekend.

I wish I could be normal and excited for Saturday.

I wish I could have traded a month of weekends for one free day today with him.

I wish I could have a moment of summer back. Just a moment for the two of us. That's rediculous to want but just one more afternoon in the sun. The careless laughter and the pure smiles. Holding his hand. Sometimes I miss it. Sometimes I want it back just for a moment. A moment to remember how it feels to be happy. A moment to be filled with love instead of longing. Simply to feel love instead instead of aching. How many moments did I waste? I wish I had relished it more. The winter is long and cold. I miss my lover.

I really want to dance right now. It's a horrible need. I want to perfect my technique. I think that is what I will do on the weekends. I will push myself so that I can become a better dancer and condition my body. God knows I need it. Strength training is good and I can increase flexibilty at the same time.

Also perhaps if I work really hard it can be a good stress reliever. But if I don't have to feel guilty about eating fast food it will be worth all the sweat. Look out world, Emily is going to conditioned. =)