Fasting Works

Dude last night was really cool! I didn't realize it but fasting really does work!

Alright so my whole 'not going to eat for 24 hours' thing didn't work. I made it till 10:30 am and said, "I'm hungry, where's the food?" Instead I switched my fast to be no caffine and no computer. Everytime I started wanting on of either, I'd do a short little prayer. Nothing to fancy but a definete update with God.

Youth group was mostly devoted to worship. We painted pictures while the band played praise songs. My picture ended up being symbolic. A river runs through the middle with red on one side and white on the other. In the middle of the river is a bridge. For me the red is the sin and the white is where God is waiting for me. All I have to do is cross the bridge and I can be with him and away from the sin. Maybe I can get a picture on here or something? Painting is not really my thing.

My whole prayer thing with God was this: I need a purpose. God give me a purpose. What is the plan for me? Clue me in on something God.

Crazy thing is he did give something to me. It's amazing. I don't think something like that has ever happened to me that I was aware of. I didn't realize it at first but later on I went, "Oh duh. That was God. Totally."

That feeling was complete happiness. Maybe its because that what God wants me to do? At least for now it is.

Since my fast was such a success and because I still feel bad for caving in on the food one I'm doing an even harder one all week. No mp3 player. No listening to music on my computer.

The reason is a treat music like a religion itself. So for a whole week I'm turning it off to focus on God and see what happens. Maybe he'll show me some more stuff? I really hope so.