Busy Busy Busy

I have managed to stay out of the house almost all weekend. Obviously yesterday was formal so I had to spend several hours getting ready. I had meant to take pictures but never got around to it. I just didn't feel like playing photographer last night. Saturday afternoon I went with my mom to a Secret Sister party. They revealed who they were giving too and drew new names. Everyone kept saying I should do it so I finally caved. I'm excited about my person; it's definetly going to be fun finding gifts for her.

Today I left the house for church and came home after youth group. The ballet class was really fun. Oregon Ballet Theater school was amazing! I wish I could take class there everyday. It was so awesome being there I didn't want to leave. I finally drug myself out of the beautiful building and went to youth group.

Let's none of us forget about who we are
So choose a path and follow it
Take a pill and swallow it
None of us forget about who we are
It's not forever we can fool around in the dark

I wish things were different. I wish I really was a ballerina. I wish I was his ballerina. I wish I could look at myself and be satisfied with the reflection. I wish I eat a meal without feeling guilty. I wish I could be honest with the people in my life. I wish I could fill the silence with the words screaming in my head. I wish I was different.

We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's cracked leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last
It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses

I wish happiness didn't come at a price. It's so expensive now. Silly little wounds will never mend. I need it to not freeze tomorrow. I need to go see him. I need him to call me. Please? I'm begging my phone to ring. I'm going to stay up all night and wait for you even if it never comes. Even if it's only a few seconds I need a fix of you baby. I'm going crazy without you. Put your hands on me.