So Simple

I have figured something out. It's so...duh....but it took me till now to realise it.


My life is really simple.




It's the people I live with who have complicated lives.




Emotions are complex.



Actions are simple.



Motives are complex.




Impacts are simple.



What I want to do...what I am doing....what I've done....is all really simple.


I'm a junior in high school. I'm going to go to community college to save money and then transfer to a four year university.

I like this guy and am going to wait around until he decides dating me is a good thing.

I have this hobby I really love and try to spend as much time as I can doing it. I have goals and can't wait to meet them.

I am not sure what I want to major in and pursue as a career but am exploring my interests to find out what I like and what I don't. I quit what I don't like and explore depth in what I do.

Most of my emotional 'problems' are caused by my own personal insecurities, poor body image, perfectionist tendencies and the fact that I am extremly critical of myself.



I feel so much better now. All the drama and everything is because everyone else is so complex and weird. I'm simple and straight forward. I don't know exactly where life will take me but I know where I want to go and what not to do. Thank you bad role models for making mistakes for me. I'll set my own example.

My father and I had a conversation. He was beginning to feel hesitant about a decision he had to make and the impact it would have on my life. I told him (ignoring my own need to stay in my safety zone and making an effort to try to put someone else's needs before my own) "I'll be okay."
He said, "I know you will. You're one of those people who will always be okay."

I am not them. I am simple. They are complex. I will never be them. I'll always do whatever it takes, no matter how hard, how dangerous or how hopeless. That's heart. Determination. And dreams.

I am for now and always the dreamer, Emily Rose.