It's Not Like I Expected It Would Be

My baby is a small person, but it is incredible how much she has grown since the day she was born. For fun I swaddled her in one of her newborn blankets the other night. Some babies love to be swaddled but Frogger did not. I was never very good at it anyways so I was happy to let that go. Now the blanket is too tiny to keep her swaddled. In the last 9 weeks she had grown 3 inches and gained 5 pounds.

Being a mother is different then I would have imagined, even after growing up surrounded by children. I never pictured myself breastfeeding in a J.C. Penny dressing room or relaying projectile diaper-time stories. When I was little I remember dreading doctor visits that ended in shots, but little did I know that I would dread Frogger's appointments for the same reason.

What I did suspect was that I would be more of a modern parent, unlike my own mom. However once the mother instincts finally kicked in about 6 hours after Frogger was born, I realized I was going to be just like my own protective mother. Frogger's dad thinks I spoil her with attention. I don't worry about her becoming overly clingy, after all my parents 'spoiled' me as a baby and I've spent the last several years trying to gain independence from them. I think perhaps it is in the parents who become over attached to the children, not the other way around.

Everyone is shocked when I tell them that she sleeps through the night and has since she was 4 weeks old. Every night baby and I snuggle up together in my bed and sleep for 8 to 10 hours.Sometime in the morning she will let me know she is hungry, and we'll both fall back asleep as she is eating. It's so lazy and lovely. I don't even have a crib. The bassinet was a waste of money-she was never going to sleep in it. My little singer has the ability to cry and cry without ceasing and has been doing so since she was born. But this way works for us. No bottles, no crib, no crying, no hassle.

Wow is my life different now.