I Want To Start Over

I want to swim again.

I want to wear sunglasses and be able to see. To not observe the world in the blurry way that I do.

I want to be surrounded by people I can freely touch who won't touch me first.

I want to cry out all my tears in an 80 degree pool of water that is surrounded by roses and kissed by loving rays of the sun.

I want to drink a blackberry smoothie.

I want to forget this and walk away, start over.