A New Beginning

Today is November first. That means it’s going to be a new beginning. My life is shaky now but it’s just going to get better. The see saw ride is over. It’s all up from here.

You know attitude is everything. I can’t control everything that’s going on around me. However all is not lost because I can control how I feel about it. I chose to be happy.

If I want I can sit around and throw a big pity party. I’ll feel worse but hey I can do that. Stressing outing won’t make me feel better either. Neither will being really angry. Instead I’m going to be happy. No one is going to ruin that.

Jake you can stay away. I’m not going to play the game anymore. I’m going to be a functional person again. Scary thought I know. Just because you are emotionally unstable doesn’t mean I’m going to be. This time it’s about me. I’m going to take care of myself. Everyone wants me to care for them but if I can’t help myself than obviously I can’t help anyone else. That’s a fact.

I’m going to be an amazing student this month.

I’m going to be a neat freak this month.

I’m going to walk around with a smile on my face this month.

I’m going to be friendly and supportive.

I’m not going to cry anymore than I have too.

I’m not going to wallow in self pity.

I’m not going to want people to feel sorry for me.

I’m going to be optimistic and hope that things work out.

I am Emily Rose. I am a nice, beautiful person. I am not limited to the silliness of life. I’m going to excel and be happy.

November I’m ready for you.