I'd Get An Apple

I want an apple
I want a hundred dollars
I want an apple
No you want a hundred dollars.
I want a hundred dollars
What would you do with a hundred dollars?
I'd get an apple
(Sarah and I)


The Sunday before last Pastor George talked about exchanging the necessary for the unnecessay. I thought that it might be a good topic to explore on my journey to happiness.

I was about to say that I'm not crazy, but it's very possible that I am. But I'm trying to think, what is unnecessary in my life?

Stress. Can I exchange that?

What stresses me out?

• school
• family
• the future
• homework
• people

School and Homework

I'm only taking five classes so I don't feel that school is currently a main stressor in my life. It's actually a really nice feeling to be able to go to school, learn and do work but not overdo it.

I think I'll try taking as light as possible loads from now on. Honors English isn't so hard when it's only Honors English. When I can focus on one thing, I tend to be more productive.

Being able to sleep in later is helpful too. Remind me to only take classes after nine in the morning from now on.

SSE is going to be hard, but I think as long as I stick with the schedule and deadlines I put in place for myself it won't be so bad. Certain kinds of stress are actually good for you and as long as I don't put anything off, I think the stress that comes naturally with a project of this size will be helpful.

Family

To be 100% honest, I always stress myself more over family than is necessay. I worry about them a lot.

I worry about my dad overworking himself, about my mom getting herself into trouble, about Joe not having enough social interaction, about Thomas not getting an outlet for his excess energy, about Autumn and her constant attitude as well as her slow start at learning to read. Will and Sarah I don't really worry about too much. Will seems to have adjusted to life as a teenager so well and Sarah is just brilliant. I love her to death and marvel at how intelligent she is, always trying to teach her new things.

I guess for sure I need to not worry about my parents. They are adults and should be able to take care of themselves. Maybe the problem is I'm too much of a control freak. lol I need to learn to back off and let things happen. Same with Joe. Autumn is just my bratty sister who I need to not let get to me so much.

The Future

Mainly college. Where am I going to live?

I know the answer already, stop living in the future and focus on the present. Everything will work itself out.

I recieved the notice about dance auditions for Fullerton. Will I be attending? Honestly, I think I'll stay in Oregon. I'm happy for now and that's what really matters. I can go to community college for two years and then make a decision.

People

I don't really know the answer to this. I guess be more loving, forgiving and accepting. Try to not be so sensitive and let nasty remarks slide off my back. Don't judge people and try to forgive those who judge me. Learn to be patient.

What do you need to get rid of in your life?