Sick and Stressed

It's Friday the 13th. Nothing bad seems to have happened but I can't seem to get well.

I came down with sniffles Sunday night but I brushed it off as allergies. By Monday afternoon I was definetly feeling sick and irritated with Kalysta. We had decided I would do my load of homework on Monday and hang out on Sunday. Then Monday she calls me What are you doing? Come over. That really upset me because I'm like homework? I ended up going over to her house anyways and then feeling stressed out over my homework that I didn't finish. I would never do that to someone! I just feel that's completely inconsiderate and shows you only care about yourself.

I stayed home from school Tuesday because I wasn't feeling good but Wednesday I went to Disneyland and I felt fine.

Yesterday I went to school and was feeling okay until after lunch. So I stayed home yet again today and I don't feel any better. In fact I'm exhusted and I haven't done anything except for sleep, watch TV and read.

To make matters worse, Kalysta and I don't seem to be seeing eye to eye on anything. She got me a stuffed bunny and get Well Card and that was fun but she doesn't seem to understand the I'm sick concept. I called her last night and asked if she could bring me a textbook I had forgotten in the locker. She agreed but wanted to stay and eat lunch with me. The problem was
I didn't want her coming over...because she might notice what's going on in my house...the big earth shattering thing I haven't told her yet. Jake says I need to just tell her...not to dance around the important things...but it's so hard! I haven't really had the chance being sick. I tried to talk her out of it but I figured I was stuck.

My family skillfully hid as much evidence as possible when she arrived. I told her she could stay but she didn't. She wasn't really talking or smiling and just walked out. My dad caught her on her way and asked if she was staying. Apparently she said I don't think anyone wants me here.

Ugh! That's not it! New rule: Family and friends need to stay separate. That's whats making this so hard. It's not that shes just losing me...she losing them too and the burden is solely on my shoulders. God I wish my family could just find their own fucking friends and not steal mine. It is so pathetic. I was actually happy...but they couldn't stand for that. You know I was happy too. Is that not allowed? Am I not allowed to be happy?!

I swear all my family ever does is ruin any good in my life. I'm not fucking kidding. and they get mad if I blame them.