I was Insane When I Was Fourteen

I organized my books alphabetically by author today. I picked up one of my old journals (kept from January 11 to June 5th 2005)and read some random page. I couldn't help but start to laugh my head off when I read the crazy things I had to say when I was fourteen. Basically, I yelled about my parents, how I was going to get out when I was 18 and how in love I was with my boyfriend. I know I probably shouldn't share but I think it's so rediculous and funny I just have too!

June 1st, 2005
Dear Journal, I was too tired to write last night. At this point I'm so wired I barely remember yesterday. Only one thing. During voice lessons Mr. Baker same in to ask Mrs. Lockwood something. He told me I had a beautiful voice. I'm pretty sure I blushed. I tried to track him down but with half the school's girls around him I didn't get too.
Today I had a splendid time with Nikolas. We kept trying new things. Different positions and ways to make-out. Why do they call it make-out? It's such a dorky word. During youth was weird. I wanted to sit on the same couch as him. Really I did. And I'm pretty sure he wanted me next to him too. But I didn't. Not ready maybe. too afraid. Don't honestly know. So instead I sat across from him. Months ago it was me staring at him through youth. He never looked me in the eye. Now he spends most of his time staring at me. And I can't seem to look him in the eye for more than a few seconds. So strange.