Strange.Normal.Nothing.

People in my life. are strange.

At another time her affections were deeply engaged by a young gentleman who visited a lady on a neighboring plantation. It was after they went to Mississippi to live.The young man was engaged to be married to the young lady, and they sometimes called upon Margaret, driving over of afternoons in a buggy. Edna was a little miss, just merging into her teens; and the realization that she herself was nothing, nothing, nothing to the engaged young man was a bitter affliction to her. But he, too, went the way of dreams.

-The Awakening



I think too much. I wonder to much about whether or not I'm worthy. I worry about getting fat. I miss deadlines. I sleep in. I forget people's names.

And then I assign roles and personalities to people. Sometimes I end up being right but not always. I become surpised. But I thought... No silly. weren't you? No. didn't you... No. supposed too? No

Oh.

Is it better? Is it worse?

I realized I'm starting to be normal again. The preDecember Emily lives again. Perhaps this move has done some good to me. I still miss him though. Does that ever go away? But I forget I am nothing, nothing, nothing to him. In time he will go the way of dreams.